This always seems to ring true for me. There are just certain situations where had I trusted myself a little more, I would definitely have come away with a better result. Take our current living arrangement….two families, both with babies under 6 months, add in a few dogs and differing lifestyles and values—it’s pretty much a recipe for disaster, don’t you think?
Had I trusted myself, I would probably still be holding on to a shred of sanity by the time I go to bed. Now, don’t get me wrong, it has been more than nice to have my baby be able to stay at home, but sometimes I’m questioning my thoughts on whether it was worth it. I guess I just had that nagging voice in my head telling me to not agree to the arrangement however, I felt like it was what a good person should do and I’m a firm believer in karma…..I definitely did not want that kind of bad karma coming back to bite me in the a$$. I’m sure God would appreciate the way Tim and I were trying to treat our neighbors but dang, neighborly love only goes so far. All I can say is thank goodness for medication. (Actually, THEY should all be giving thanks that I have medication….)
So anyway, that little nagging voice that kept telling me it was a bad idea was chirping in my head in a smug little tone all last weekend. I feel like Tim and I definitely got to test our parenting skills with our houseguests when we had to sit down and have a little talk about what is and isn’t acceptable in our house. I guess it will be different when Drew grows up and becomes a teenager, but that was not a conversation I want to repeat.
Having vented all that, I have to say that though the experience may have started to run its course, and it sometimes gets pretty stressful around the house, I have come to realize that Tim is one of the best husbands –slash dads – slash men I have ever known. I am so glad Drew will have such a good role model as he grows up. Though I had plenty of reasons for not starting to date Tim 10 years ago, I’m glad I trusted myself enough to go ahead and jump right in….I really did know more than I thought I did when I made that decision, and thank goodness I did. :)